iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, April 10, 2009
6:13 PM
I don't want this reality. I know i've let them down. Sometimes I really wonder how much i've disappoint her. I used to visit that page everyday for the past few days but now i dread the thought of it.
Indeed, i have no regret cause I thought my performance was acceptable, yet, I feel terribly upset that our hard work didn't pay off as much as I want it to.
... ...
'Win back our lost glory"
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, March 19, 2009
9:15 PM
Today, I practically did nothing. In the noon, I went to school for band which wasn’t very tedious and we get to practice in the hall. It’s great practicing in the hall just that I find it too troublesome to carry the things and set up the hall.
Oh, and I went for piano lesson today. Okayy, as usual, my theory sucks and I got all the questions wrong. Haha, I think I should seriously put in more effort in my piano so that I can at least pass my grade 6.
Gotta go to yuhua for band tomorrow.
Aghh, holidays are filled with band, hope all those hard work will pay off.
So much for not continuing the trend of hierarchy…Please…
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, March 16, 2009
8:34 PM
HELLO! It has been a really really long time since I last updated my blog.
Haha, it’s sort of dead now. Oh well, I’ll try to update it more often!It’s the first day of March holidays and it’s also the only day which is a real holiday because I have CCA for the rest of the week and need to go out on Wednesday to time the traffic light for CID.
Btw, I polish my trumpet today. Yeah!! It’s really shiny now. Thanks to the twinkle which saying passed it to me!
Shall end here! Bye!
(P.S there’s lots of undone homework on my table! >.< )
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
8:08 PM
Goodbye 2008....
Welcome 2009!!!
Happy New Year((:
I'm happy...
remember the promise?
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, November 28, 2008
10:43 PM
Hello:D Just changed a new skin
Shall update soon
:D
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
10:30 PM
I hate it when the numbers bother you so much till the extend it strain the friendship. What is the difference between a slight discrepancies of a few marks or rather a grade, does it mattes at all? After all results don’t determine your future, they absolutely don’t cave your life ahead on stones. From casual, lovely and entertaining conversation of ours, it has turned into a mundane and boring one.
“eh… how much you get for blah blah blah”
“erm… you say first lah”
“Don’t want, you say first”
“okay lah, I get xxx”
& if the reply is
"I get xxmarks lower than you”
The relived of the tense atmosphere could be sensed followed by a shallow condolence which so didn’t come from the bottom of heart.
but if the reply is
“xxmarks higher than you”
Jealously could be sense and all those teasing began.
Look, I don’t really care about these superficial little numbers that has become part and parcel of our lives. No doubt that I want better marks (like who don’t?) but I see no point for all those competitiveness. It’s just making me so so frustrated. I don’t mind if it is just a normal conversation of results, it is the competitiveness and you strong will to overcome me that turns me off. Not that I’m afraid that I’ll loose out, but as I’ve said, it strain the friendship build. Because of results, you are now so unwilling to teach me when I tried to clear my doubts about certain topics with you. Because of results, you are unwilling to lend me your notes when I don’t get a point. And because of results, you occasionally lie about marks. I hate those…
On a lighter note, this also has made me realised those true friends around me. :D
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, October 19, 2008
10:19 PM
Hello:D
Shall update my blog after a long long time!
END-OF-YEAR IS FINALLY OVER *shouts out loud
Alright although I screwed lots of papers especially those near the end, I’m still gonna convince myself not to think about it! Haha
But apparently I can’t 0_O I didn’t finish my HCL and my math is argh! Lang arts was bad too cause I got the first question wrong, I wrote some super silly ans. And physics, I give up after doing the first few MCQ so don’t have mood to do the rest of the paper despite it wasn’t difficult. CID I didn’t even get the question, and I went on blabbering and blabbering nonsense. I got carried away so I think I’ll get a big BI. Lalalala,,.. so in conclusion, I think I’m dead!
…..
Went out with Lq Lydia &al on Friday for lunch, quite fun! Eat and talk and lalalas
Tomorrow should be going out with friends (?)
No mood to say anything…
Bye..
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, September 18, 2008
9:45 PM
Foreignness, a world that I live in, is it too perfect for me? When the past can’t be replay. It’s different. Those deafening noise that trigger in my ears; immuned yet it hurts. I wonder why… those words that you spurt, simply… “amazing” (till the extend I can’t describe)
Perhaps you think it’s better, I don’t. It’s just not you, so stop mimicking.
What should I do confuse me…
Moodswing…
It could be that the mountain is the place that is truly meant for me…
Take me away with the wind.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, September 13, 2008
11:29 PM
*waves
Yesterday went to Chinese Garden after band practice to celebrate mooncake festival with trumpets and jieren. We went after school with hp,xq,jr&yb but liling decided to wait for us at Chinese garden. Paiseh, we made her wait for 1hour. >.< we sat on the floor near the entrance of the lantern exhibition since we didn’t want to pay the $18 to enter the place. Lols, we shall be cheap skate. Played only one game which is truth or dare but after a few games, we decided to play truth or truth. I've to say that the dares were really funny. Shan’t describe it here because it will only be amusing when you see it with your own eyes, Haha. We spun jillian’s water bottle. My feng shui was quite good since the bottle didn’t point at me, despite the fact that everyone else was pointed at. But somehow liling cheated a bit and give the bottle a light spin & it landed on me. I wanted to choose dare cause doing truth is sort of awkward however; the game had already been change to truth or truth, so no choice. It’s perhaps one of my first time doing truth cause usually I’ll do dare. I feel revealed as no one ever knew it, but considering the fact that I love trumpets, I said it out anyway. Haha, shhh…
Then on the way home at boonlay bus interchange, there was this guy who walked up to me and ask me
Stranger: “Can you speak mandarin?”
Me: “Yes” (I thought he was asking for direction so I said)
Stranger: “Do Singapore girls like srilanka guy?” (I thought that it was a dare, since we just played that game)
Me: “It depends”
Stranger: “Nono, as in you are a Singaporean girl so do you like srilanka guys?”
Me: “huh? No?”
Stranger: “do you like china guys” [ then his friend come near him and he nudged him away]
Me: “Erm, perhaps, can consider”
Stranger: “can I have your phone number?”
Me: “Eh… eh... I need to go home” *points to the 243G queue.
Stranger: “ 回家规回家， 给电话规给电话”
Me: [not knowing how to answer, I told a lie] “ I don’t have a phone
Stranger: “ is there a way to contact you?”
Me: “ you don’t need to contact me”
Stranger: can I have your email?
Me: eh.. * looks away
Stanger: if you don’t want give just say
Me: I don’t want to give
Then he walk away and said “ hope to see you again.” I was like -- __--
Reached home at about 11 ++ was being screamed at, glad that it’s all over now.
Today went out with my family to play lanterns & sparklers. Back to childhood haha, but it wasn’t as fun.
This is a long post! ((:
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
i made this with candles! :D
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, August 29, 2008
9:23 PM
Whee!
Just came back from section outing!!! (jy, bc, yl, jt, rt, ic + guest of honour which I invited) Yippee. It was fun fun fun.
We played lots of games including captain’s ball, true or dare, monkey etc.
Ok, to begin with, we brought practically nothing aka nothing for entertainment purposes e.g. a ball. The pathetic us totally went to borrow from other people. Alrights, they are nice people so they lend us their ball and we begin our captain's ball game. exciting! (Rt is pro but with our team work we won! lols that sounds cliche though) Anyway, they left before us and we had to return the ball after about 45 mins. The next game was true or dare since we didn’t have anything to play with. Ok my dare was to go to the life guard and say “my friends say you very shuai4, can wave to them or not” he was so nice and totally wave whee. Yl’s dare was to go to the beach petro uncle and say something like can you paint your red car blue and can you drive me along the beach (something like that) Getting really bored with the game, our dare for jt was to help us borrow a ball and she did, so we continued playing captains ball and monkey!
… and we went home.
On another note, I was totally grounded by my mum this morning for some lame things and she didn’t allow me to go to sentosa (after agreeing the previous night) but after much persuasion (aka calling her after school), she reluctantly let me go.
Holiday has come but it’s like no fun at all. Homeworks. Thursday need to go back school to collect physics paper and for extra physics lesson. Ok, I think I failed physics. I’m nervous to go to school on Thursday. Anyway, there was this big wound on my leg, all thanks to the physics test!!! This was what happened. I was doing the test, (which I don’t know how to do) and my leg began to itch. Being irritated, I exerted a little more force and this result in a big wound. Went to see the doctor yesterday, cost $51 and he gave me this antibiotics which is so big that I had huge problem swallowing it. I need 3 attempts to swallow my first pill today. Ewwwkk,
Jia you for holiday!
edited
p.s my mum is weird. After I came back from Sentosa, she didn’t even yell at me or anything, instead she bought me a toothbrush lols. Ok I was quite amused by it. First the moment she reached home, she excitedly told me that she bought me a new tooth brush I was like okay, so I got a new toothbrush? Then she started ‘promoting’ the toothbrush she told me that it has some whitening effect and can clean the teeth thoroughly etc. after that she told me that she also bought me a new toothpaste. She said that it can whiten up the teeth in 12 weeks. I got really curious so I went to take a look. And guess what? The tooth brush is exactly the same as what I’m using now, except that it is new. & the toothpaste is the normal Colgate whitening toothpaste which has the 12 hours protection thingy (apparently she misinterpreted it as 12 weeks whitening lols) yeah mummy is cute & I shall be grateful that she didn’t scold me.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, August 24, 2008
7:42 PM
Change, it creeps quietly into our life. I tried to search for the past, the one that I enjoy so much, but to no avail.
I know that you are better than me; I never ever tried to deny the fact. Making the truth obvious isn’t necessary for everyone has eyes to see. It hurts. When sarcasm and words of discourage spill out form you. When you choose to say it despite knowing that it pricks like needles and cuts like knife. Perhaps, it’s this pride and authority that creeps into your life. I just wish for you not be so competitive, so prejudiced, so arrogant and so hypocrite. Longing for the old you, what you used to be. But all that’s left are memories, fading away. May it be due to the fact that I didn’t treasure you in the past that causes all these. I apologized from the bottom of my heart if that is the reason.
I’ve tried. I’ve tried to be nicer. I’ve tried to find the old you. Is it time to let fate decide the future?
The change that is changing you, I think you’re unaware. I once told you about it, but you denied. The only solution, I change the subject, to prevent the ignition of quarrel. On the façade, everything may seem as calm as it is. Perhaps you haven’t known what’s going on in my mind. It doesn’t matter.
You may say I’ve change, I don’t know how, but I’m aware, it’s just this feeling that makes me feel that I’m not the same…
May change change us for the better?
I wish…
It would….
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, August 09, 2008
11:27 PM
Yesterday, trumpets had a farewell BBQ at my house. It was really fun especially when we push others into the swimming pool. ((: I was being pushed so many times into the pool by… lolls I wanna play some more.
Just before the whole thing end, we gave the sections card that we made to the seniors. [Xq’s card was made by me and I think it is the nicest. Haha thickskinned. But I really like that card.] The atmosphere was really… filled with emotions? I feel like crying but I just control since I don’t wanna start the whole crying thing again.
Alrights, in conclusion, trumpets rocks and I love trumpets!!!
“yanhua, you have change, a lot” “It’s good and bad”
Your words make me ponder. Didn’t I really change? And I concluded, I did. I’m so sorry if this isn’t the me you wanna me to be. But I promise you will still be my best friend. Me, too want to go back to the “old” time, I will treat you the same way like what it used to be<33
Please, I’m giving you all the respect that you need, I didn’t rebuke at anything you say and this is all because I don’t want to start a quarrel. You may know that I feel that I can’t really get along well with you and I think you feel the same way too, but I did respect you for who you are. I just wish that you could stop being so arrogant and da4 pai2,exerting great control over me when unnecessary. tyvm (I’m sorry, but I really need to let out my feelings)
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
8:08 PM
This is unbearable; I didn’t know that the bond was so strong till this day when we had to part. I cired. My tear stricken face, I didn’t care about looking decent anymore. I tried hard to stifle my sobs but it broke in to tears. [The first time in 2++ year I ever cried in the band room.] The sight of them makes me cry even more, as I think of the past memories. I anticipate the different atmosphere when I step into the same room, the feeling of emptiness without them. It’s gonna be different. I missed those times having practice together, when there was always someone to coach me and covered up my mistake. I miss those times. If all the past could be replayed, I think I’ll treasure it even more.
Questions raced through my mind and the tears welled up in my eyes as I type this. The guilt I have of not mastering my trumpet. The uncertainty of the future….
I miss those times. If time could rewind, if only time could rewind. Choked with emotions, I hugged them and kept quiet, there is so much to say, yet I don’t know what to say.
I love trumpets, -hp, xq, ll, rach, dy, jy, bc & the rest. I miss my lovely and nice seniors, *lots of hugs and kisses* <333>
farewell and goodbye, i miss you...
Oh no, I’m crying again.
jy & bc jia you we'll always support you.<33
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, August 03, 2008
9:19 PM
Performed at Istana today. I think I is one of the longest performance, there wasn’t much audience. Everything was generally fine except that I screwed up some parts. (I hate myself for that) after the performance, we toured around the istana and then gather outside to taken photo with the president. It was a long wait for the president.
When for section dinner with trumpets (xq, hp, jy, bc & me) + sebby and jr, but took neoprints instead since we were all quite full from the curry puff and snacks that they provided. I went home halfway because mummy wants me home by 8. I was 15mins late but glad that she didn’t screamed much at me for that, just some naggings. Didn’t get to see how the neoprints look like, I really want to see it.
Sad, seniors will be leaving us soon, really soon. I wonder how band life would be without them.
I admitted to someone about something in the past (first time lor) hope it wouldn’t be spread.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, July 26, 2008
6:49 PM
Woots back to civilization from OBS! Yay-ness + Boo hoo.
In general I shall say that OBS is fun fun fun ! it was so so many times better than what I thought it would be. I scorn at my unwillingness to go to OBS after realizing how wonderful it was. I love my watch a lot – COOK!!
(taken from QQ mummy's blog)
Day1: we introduced ourselves and get to know our instructor, Birin (who was very nice and humorous). Tidying our stall, distribution of food is what we did next. The food was mostly can food, biscuits and bread. Kayaking was our first activity of the camp. We learned how to kayak and did some capsized drills. My buddy was ailing. Scary, was all that I can say. Both of us didn’t know how to kayak and we were always the last to gather. Turning was our greatest difficulty and I was terrified seeing our kayak heading straight towards the vast ocean and we were unable to control it. I nearly cried while paddling. Night came and we learnt to pitch a tent and cook our own dinner.
Day2: we build a raft and sat on it to camp one. Thanks to the strong guys in our watch who help us to tie a secure nod. Camp1 was much better than the rest of the campsite; it has nice facilities with good urbanization. We did trust fall. I was scared, I swear. Whenever I feel like fall back, I hesitate. It took a long time for me to fall backwards. Dinner was (relatively) nice, we went to the cook house.
Day 3: rock climbing was nerve-wrecking, I kept screaming “ahh, i don’t want le”. After that we went tracking to camp 3. We have to figure out our own way in the forest to camp trees. I really appreciate the fact that there was a scout (Eric) in our watch who help us with navigations. It wasn’t really challenging, but tiring. We have to climb up and down the hill with a heavy bag pack which causes me to have 4 mosquito bites on my face(considering the fact that I sprayed lots of repellent). And we had to walk through this swamping area till my shoes are drenched with mud but it was great that we finally reach our camp site – camp site 3. it was a ulu place with no urbanization, not at all. There wasn’t even a toilet and we had to pee in the bushes. Instant noodles was what we had for dinner after pitching our tents. The place is so near Malaysia that we could hear disco coming from the pubs there from our tents. I didn’t really sleep for the whole night.
Day 4: woke up at 4 and we went for our sea expedition. I pair up with Elton caused weaker ones are supposed to pair up with stronger ones, so apparently I’m the weaker one. At first I was quite enthusiastic and I did help to kayak (I swear-qq keep saying that I was slacking D:) the journey was smooth until there was this part with high tide and waves was gushing into our kayak. At first I ignored it but when our kayak was more than half filled with water, I ask ET if he want to jump out of the kayak and he said no. I knew that we had to do something so I just jump out of the kayak myself and he followed. Then kayak was so so heavy and I was trying to pull it to the shore. ( shan’t let out what Et was doing then). Like what we learned during the capsized drills, we were supposed to empty the kayak; however, it was just too heavy for us to empty it. So I ask et if we should blow the whistle and he said no. I just heck care and blew it, hehe. But the instructor came only after a long time. Finally everything was alright and we kayak to an island. Then we continued our journey. The sea water got into my eyes and I can’t even open it. I tried to help Et but my eyes hurt, I keep washing it but it was of no use. Shall admit that I didn’t help much during the second half of the journey but I did help a little ok. The sun was scorching on me and being kiasu, I spray a thick layer of sunblock on my face and now I totally regretted it. I got a lot of rashes on my face due to the over usage of sun block, I think I’m allergic to the sun block cause it was a new brand that I didn’t use before, but it was also because that it was for body and I sprayed it on my face. we reached camp 2 our base camp at 1.06pm, 6 hour journey ended.
Day5: time to go home, we tidy up our stall and were all ready to go home. I really missed urbanization, techonology etc. but I do miss our camp site too, although during the activities, it was rather tough but thinking back it was sort of fun. It was the only week that we get real to the basics and live with nature. We don’t have to think about our homework, school work and tests. Time passes and I’m back, and all that is left are memories; beautiful memories. The 5 day of obs.Embrace new challenges with an open mind. Treasure what I have and lessen my grumblings.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
8:59 PM
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, July 13, 2008
9:53 PM
Here are some pictures mel took for me on speech day 2008. I seriously didn’t expect her to bring a camera just for me!! Thanks a lot <33
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, July 12, 2008
10:36 PM
Ok, so speech day has officially ended! Hurray!
I think the performance was ok. I played my normal standard. Standing at such a ‘prominent’ place I was sort of nervous. I could see camera flash, which make me feel worst and dare not look at the audience. My friends could all easily spot me. I remember vividly there was this part where we have to take out our mute really fast. I was in a fumble, I hesitated a while wondering where should I place the muted, and in the end I just put it on the floor when everyone has already put down theirs, apparently I was the last one to stood up and it was super obvious, my friend could totally remember that scene. Paisei.
There is an extreme make over in our school the past few days. Canteen’s old leaking tap has been replaced with a brand new one. The hall seems to be extraordinarily clean and students were actually provided with chairs. Off-pitch piano was carefully tuned (apparently the choir needs it) and the front of the stage was filled with pretty flowers. What’s more? There was a big beautiful bouquet of blooming flowers right in front of the general office given by (guess)… the canteen stall holders. (I wonder and wonder why, there has to be a makeover.) The contrast was clearly seen. The façade of the beautiful school, merely the façade and it will all be over in a few days.
Yesterday when to the SSO concert. I think their performance as in their sound and tone was nice, but it resemble some kind of CD or recording. Maybe it’s because they sounded too perfect, like the typical CD kind.
Went home by mrt; laugh a lot at some damn funny things-Interesting. I was so being given this unwanted nickname. (Not so dumb to post it here later everyone starts calling me that :D ) I seriously don’t know why. I don’t think I’ve the slightest resemblance of a老巴刹aunty lor. Anyway I don’t really mind since it’s only a name. (Considering the fact that I think it sounds quite cute)
There are questions in my mind that have kept pondering me for very long.
I wonder why there is a need for a false sense of fulfilment. Though it makes me feel better, but deep inside I know that it is false. When things weren’t really up to expectations, you just put on the mask and said that it was good – I know this is your condolence for me; after all you don’t want me to feel disappointed; so I just put on a fake smile, signifying everything is fine and nodded to give you back the reassurance. I know you feel as bad as I do, but you did rather keep it to yourself…
Replaying the past, I just can’t stop thinking.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, June 30, 2008
6:57 PM
The performance at VCH was superb. After looking and hearing the videos, I think It was great!! Yay-ness. Anyway I think although the preparation was tedious and hard, it all pays off, the concert was wonderful indeed.
I was quite nervous just before we go on stage. In the back stage, my stomach can’t help churning; my mind was in a whirl. As the performance time got nearer, my heart pounded faster and faster. And finally, it came. The uproar of the audience as we neatly walk on to the stage sent a tingling sensation down my spine. Thoughts raced through my mind. “Are we going to perform well? Will the hard work we put in pay off?” the suspense was unbearable. The conductor-ms Chan walked onto stage we jerk up in unison and then sat down. Our first song, Grand March began. My body stiffened as we played our fanfare. The concert continues with us playing huntingdon and Disney. I was quite anxious at the beginning but it got better and I played better too.
When the concert ended, I was in a mix of emotions. Just in a few minutes, and it’s all over…
I sincerely thank my seniors for the card, so sweet. I really could feel that our bonds build up as time past by. <333
Feeling like writing more, but mummy is calling me for dinner
Gtg
Bye. (to be continued some other days)
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, June 20, 2008
9:21 PM
Hello :D
There’s a sudden urge to blog…
Well, holiday is coming to an end in fact it is ending in 2 days, this whole week is music, music and more music. Neither good nor bad though. Have being going for band practice really frequently these days, so I practically did nothing except trumpet stuffs. (It is a good thing that I don’t dread going for band that much as compared to before.)
Lots of homework undone and incomplete e.g. ss, phy, math and hcl etc…
Anyway today was so screw up. I’m blur, shall admit it, perhaps due to lack of sleep. First, I’m being fooled by there’s ants on my hair, so this totally freak me out. Next, during the rehearsal, we were supposed to jump at a certain part (we agreed to), so I gullibly believe and in the end I’m the only one jumping (good thing that I wasn’t dumb enough to like lift my whole feet off the ground, I just merely gave an obvious leap upwards but quite paisei still.) Ok, many more things happen due to my blurriness but can’t really remember + lazy to write about it.
I’m confused. Seriously. Shan’t elaborate more… … (Why do people change? Isn’t the old image created well enough?)
I just feel that I’m such a hypocrite, not expressing my true feelings, wearing that thick mast. Though, I’ve been reminded of this however, it’s hard to change, not that I don’t want to but sometimes, I just hurt to show the reality, creating more conflicts.
When I wish upon a star… …
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, May 16, 2008
7:52 PM
Haiz…
Exam results are all out. Thanks to our efficient teachers but I did rather not get them back. Zzz… you can probably infer how I fare.
Hypothesis2: the longer I live, the more exams I’ll have,
Hypothesis1: the more exams I’ve, the more emo I become.
Conclusion: the happiness in me is fading away….
Sometimes I really wish that I’m a person with no emotions. This way perhaps will take away all my troubles and unhappiness.
Speechless, I don’t know what to say.
I realized that I don’t have an ambition and a go for the future. I’m living as days past by. I have no forte, nothing. I’m just going with the flow; doing a [boring] routine everyday.
I seriously don’t know what to do, considering the fact that exams just ended. I tried watching drama series, but the results just don’t get out of my head. I don’t know what to do now.
Perhaps I shall just stone and daydream; Pulling myself out from reality into a world of fantasy.
Wouldn’t it be nice if one day I could run to a world of magic, filled with angels and fairies?
Escaping form reality…
I want to run to a faraway land… …
With a beautiful rainbow waiting for me at the end… …
Will this ever come true?
Wishing upon a bright star…
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, May 11, 2008
8:30 PM
Hello
Updating my dead blog now!
Examination is finally over. I don’t know how I fare, really don’t know. I hope I don’t screw up but I have the feeling that I would. Haiz, whenever I tell people that I screw up the test they totally doubt me. I don’t know why. Perhaps it is just because of the physics test where I thought I screw up but in the end I didn’t. But that was just once and I was stunt too. Zzz. Whatever.
I long for the day when exam end yet when it come I don’t even feel a slightest bit of excitement, happiness and all. Hmm…
I feel so bored now. I can’t help thinking of getting back all those terrifying results. Anyway what’s done can’t be undone. Shall try to think positively. Lols
Mother’s day is today and I but my mum nothing. Feeling so paisei considering the fact that even my siblings gave her something.
No mood to do anything.
Boring…
Ahhh I just can’t forget those exams. Thinking of getting them back sent a chill down my spine!!!
Shall end here
Hope I have the mood to update soon.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, April 17, 2008
8:07 PM
In conclusion, I’m super pissed today because of a dumb thing. Early in the morning bb gave me a warning letter by Eu saying that I have been regularly not attending band practice; please, it is only like 2 days from January till Now? Furthermore, it is not that I pon CCA; this year I’m like so Guai1l, I didn’t even not go for a single practice just because I don’t want to. [I mean I don’t remember randomly pon-ing band practice since year1. I admit that sometimes I’m reluctant to go but in the end I sill went]
I shall now declare that I didn’t go on 7 March because I went to the physics talk on roller coaster, which some other people went too. Then on 28 March I had ABRSM piano practical examinations.
See valid reasons right? I totally tell my mum what happen and she was like “just tell her the reasons”. At least mummy is more understanding <33.>
I have no mood to do anything now. I think this has somewhat kill my motivation to go for band practices. Sometimes even when I dread going for practice, I still strive very hard to convince myself to go, yet this is what happens. Is this what I deserved for motivating myself to go to band practice and just because of those 2 days ( considering the fact that I had valid reasons too) I got this dumb warning letter. I was stunt, or rather I am stunt. Shan’t say anymore or else this incident will be etched even deeper in my memories….
Disappointed...
Sad...
Speechless...
It was a long time since I last posted and this isn’t a very happy post. This proves my life…
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, March 16, 2008
8:13 PM
Holidays had just started and it’s going to end soon. Haiz.
Yesterday I had my theory test, gosh, I really don’t know how I fare. I sincerely hope that I’ll pass. My teacher wants me to get above 80. hmm. Oh and for the identification of chords question, I thought I saw 2 flats but in the end Cong Wan tell me that it was 2 sharps. I really don’t know. For all my practice paper, it was this section that let me pass and it is worth 10% of the whole paper. I’m so afraid that I screw up this test. After all, I don’t wanna a retest. I think everyone will be totally pissed with me if I really screw it up. Please please don’t let me fail. HELP
Tomorrow school reopen. I think for this holiday I did not do anything much but homework and more homework. I was super irritated by this geography reading and writing. This is what happens. I tried to be cheapskate and wanted to do chemistry reading and writing assignment together with geography, thus I choose an article related to global warming for geography. [Thanks Duck who help me with it] At that time I seriously think that this was a valid topic, and started writing about it. I completed everything. EVERYTHING – including printing etc. then I decided to slack a bit and chat with my friends on msn. It just happens that I ask them about my geo topic. Almost everyone I asked say that it is not a very valid topic. At first I still consider hack caring but the more I ask, the more I realise its irrelevance, super frustrated, I unwillingly decided to redo. I chiong everything out today morning considering the fact that I have lots of half done holiday homework. [ thanks duck again]
Anyway back to the point tomorrow is School Day. I remember last time I was sort of excited [I mean of course I like holidays but I don’t dread going back to school either] to go to school after a super long holidays and I will be like a chatterbox, talking to duck and company. I’ll be eager to talk to everyone and see everyone and… …But now school reminds me of all those long lessons and the stacks of homework. Not like the lessons are real boring though sometimes they are, but I just feel that going to school life is like a routine. The things you do everyday, every week are so similar, perhaps they are really the same. Last time I used to get excited and high when holiday is coming but now holiday just seem like another time where teachers give lots and lots of homework and it’s time to chiong all those work. Holidays are no longer fun and exciting like it used to be where I can slack and chat and shop and…… be on cloud nine. Haiz.. my life is so damned boring and this truly explain why I seldom updates. Perhaps if you were to force me to update everyday, the post you read will be repetitive, because that’s my life… …
Ok so like what I’ve said tomorrow is the end of school holiday, which means back to school. The only thing I am a little eager to know is sitting arrangement but even if I don’t know it’s okay too. Just hope that I don’t sit at some weird place with some weird people.
Tomorrow there’s maths test. Jia you cyh!!!
Bye.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, March 06, 2008
9:43 PM
Haiz.
In a super bad mood these few days, for some reasons… zzz totally pissed off, but glad it’s ok now.
I totally find that our society today revolves mostly around appearance, no matter how much you detest something; you still have to put up that thick mask of yours. People just care about your façade and can’t don’t bother to look deeply to the cross section of the problem---the truth. They don’t care what you think, how you feel, so long as you smile and hide the truth. They assumed you are happy and okay. Well, although you’ll often hear them saying ‘don’t judge a book by its cover’ yada yada, cliché like this, but the harsh reality is they often do. In this harsh reality of life, we are forced to wear the mask that grins and lies as it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes.
“This is the debt we pay to human guile, with torn and bleeding heart we smile, and mouth with myriad subtleties.”
How true, this sentence is.
Even faced with things that I opposed, there’s only one way to do, compromised and wear that mask. Argh. The smile put up on my face is heavy, very heavy indeed.
I’ll try. (Like what …. Says for how long, I don’t know)
I feel so fake.
[I finally understand why the world is round and not square cause nothing in it is fair and square.]
The End. (This isn't targetted at Anyone)
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, February 24, 2008
6:17 PM
HELLOS *Waves
Shall update my super dead blog for the first time in 2008!!
Argh. I think Year3 is tough, sort of screwed up all the tests. *sign. Anyway our class is called 3Cookie Monster. Nice name right? I totally voted for it! School is okay, just that lessons can get quite boring at times, making me yawn &yawn. 3c is filled with clever and hardworking people making me feel so damn slack.
Band was a horror. I was totally being condemned on Friday because my senior wasn’t there. Feeling so horrible and embarrassed… (Apologized)-but I doubt it helps, anyway…
Hmm.. what should I blog about? I have no idea. Piano Practical and Theory is coming and I have this feeling that I’m not going to do well. HELP HELP someone please help me.
My brain is filled with stuffs, I wonder if it is all crap. Headache. Gosh it’s going to burst. Not so soon I hope.
So Jiayou yh for 2008. :)
Lols this post is RANDOM, Totally
I'll try to Update more often...
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
9:25 PM
Hello *waves.
Haha I know it has been a super long time since I last posted. I’m back from my overseas trip. The place I went to in china was very cold. Wearing 3 shirts and a blazer I still shiver in the cold winter. Nevertheless the trip was fun fun fun!!!! The snow was beautiful, very beautiful indeed. I think that the trip would not be as fun without the snow.
Enterting the Park of Snow. whee 
An Attempt to Make a Snowman. It failed -.-
Ice-Skating on a chair?? LOL. Cause I don't know how to use the blades. Haha, so shi1 bai4
Photo-ing with a snow-covered tree. brr.. It's cold
The trip was nice but when I arrive in Singapore it was a disaster!! Everything in our house seems to be in a real bad condition. Our refrigerator can’t be started and worst of all the false ceiling in the toilet drop off, I mean the whole ceiling went “bomb” and it fall off. Then, the air-con in my room starts to leak, mummy says she going to ask someone to repair it, but I don’t know when. Now, I’m in my stuffy room while typing this post. -.-'''
School is re-opening soon. Wonders and Wonders what class I will be in next year…
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
8:59 PM
These two days are really boring; I did nothing much at home. After all I think that school time seems to be more meaningful at least I get to learn something and can chit-chat with my friends.
Yesterday, something weird happened. I was packaging lunch at the foodcourt near my house. Then there was this uncle who served me, so when I was about to give him the money, he kept looking a me he asked me what’s my name. I was like ‘erm-ing’ for a while then he asked if I’m called ‘SALLY’ [do I have the sally look?] I told him that I didn’t have an English name, so he asked what my Chinese name is. I didn’t want to tell him, but he insisted. So, I murmured out my name so now he thinks that I’m called yan1 hua1 [fireworks] whatever, I didn’t bother to correct him. After that he asked me for my phone number, I shaked my head. He said, “You don’t have phone arh?” just as I was going to reply, bc called me so I picked up his call and quickly walked off.
Today I had band practice without seniors, still ok, managed to survive. [See, I’m alive!!!] Lol. After band I went to Jurong point for lunch with bc and after that I decided to take ‘Floravale bus’ home. The bus was supposed to come at 2.05 and in the end it came at 2.15. [Make me wait so long!] At least something really amusing happened while I was waiting for the bus. There were these two Indians siblings [brother & sister] who sat beside me while I was waiting for the bus. Out of a sudden, they asked me if polio injection is painful. Caught by shock, I just said ok, [I never knew that there was some kind of polio injection, I thought the bitter liquid that they put inside your mouth was for polio.] Obviously you wouldn’t expect me to be evil and say yes, it’s super pain and made them cry on their day of injection. After this, there was a long conversation between us, they were telling me how they pierce their ears, how brave were they when they didn’t cry and who will win when they fight. Yada Yada [childish things.] Then, they curiously asked me what grade am I going to next year, so I told them sec 3 and they were like stunt. They said that they thought I’m going to primary 6 next year. [! What’s more, I’m wearing my RV uniform!] When the bus arrived, the girl wanted me to sit beside her so I politely did. Then they stated talking about a Halloween party that they attended and told me how ‘scarily’ they dressed. They asked me if I attended the party, obviously I didn’t. [It's such a Duh-Question. I don't even there was a Halloween Party.] They doubted me and said ‘don’t bluff’. They claimed that they saw someone wearing pink spectacles. [Lol. There are so many people on the street that wears pink spectacles.& Why would I want to bluff them.] Some more, they asked me if I dressed in a white blanket at the party. [Come on, I wasn’t even at their Halloween party.] Finally, I reached my destination, phew!
P.S I don’t even know who they are but they are really cute.
I shall end here, a long post! && please leave a tag. :]
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, November 01, 2007
9:32 PM
Haiz..Today everything sort of went wrong.
First, I set my alarm wrongly so it rings at the normal time when I go to school which was 5.30am. Quite angry with myself, I stop then alarm and went back to sleep. Then my mum woke me up and it’s already 7++ that mean I have no time for breakfast. So my mum gave me $7 dollars and the moment I went out of the car I realised that it was gone!!
When I reached school only me and yj is on time the rest all late. Then, have to play trumpet call and all of us can’t play so there was no trumpet call for today. Paisei. Later in band we played tone and techniques [it was o.k. We still can sort of manage.] Then the terror came Amazing grace me and dy can’t really play. Oh my, at least I’m glad that we are not being screamed at.
After band I waited 2 hours ++ for the interview thingy. [Jillian (who wants to major history;) was with me cause she needs to find Mr Choy as she choose the wrong thing.] The whole interview ends at about 3.50 and I had a piano lesson at 4.30 and Mrs Toh gave me a lift in a taxi. [Thank you]
During my piano lesson, I keep playing wrong notes and missing out key signatures. Worst of all, I forget to bring my theory which I for once did on my own without the help of si hui or melody.
I guess today was just so wrong. ):
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Sunday, October 28, 2007
11:10 PM
Ooh. My internet connection was down for the past two days, and I was unable to blog!
Anyway on Friday the last day of school, we went to eat pizza hut together. Perhaps that might be the last lunch the freaks of 2F will have together. Sad. I miss those times and memories we shared together, when we were filled with smiles, tears, laughter and love. When we stayed united as one to strive for the best, when we stood by the sides of one another through thick and thin
I wonder how class time would be without sihui being my tablemate when we laugh together, when she taught me mathematics and helped me do my music theory homework till I got a star and when she kept humming songs into my ears …
I wonder how school life and recess would be without melody when we giggles and giggles till my stomachaches, when we shared some lame jokes and when we did group work together…
I wonder how cid would be without tse sin and jingyi when we stayed through the night to finish the report…
I wonder how life would be without 2F.
I gotta miss 2Fantastic freaks. We may not be in the same class but the friendship and memories will still hold.
-To 2F
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, October 25, 2007
10:12 PM
Hello :) It has been a little long since I last posted.
Lesson this few days are very very slack and school is sort of boring. We’re watching movies for almost all lessons. However, the Carnival of ideas thingy is sort of fun. I enjoyed the game booths at the hall.
So the first game I played was haunted house!! It was freaking scary. The people will try to boo you and I’m scared off my wits. I was so afraid that I fell out of the curtain and went to the back stage. (it was purely by accident) I nearly cried in the ‘hunted house’. I was pulling and dragging melody’s hand. Well I must admit that she is braver than me, probably because she went to too many hunted house. :P
After all the fun, we had some briefing on subject combinations and got back our report book. Well, probably I didn’t live up to expectations. My dad just nagged at me, questioning me about my marks. :( Tears were rolling in my eyes just now. If he were to nag any further I would had cried. Thinking back of those days when I was slacking and daydreaming before exam, I regret. If time could rewind and give me a second chance perhaps everything would have been better. Just pray for the best, the reality is harsh… Fate vs free will, the likelihood is that fate will win most of the time, don’t you agree?
&Hope the first step to disappointment.
Anyway on a lighter note tomorrow is the last day of school and when school re-open we would not be seeing the familiar faces in the familiar classroom anymore. Everyone would be separated to different class to pursue our own ambitions. <3>[I will never forget this wonderful class.] <33
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, October 18, 2007
8:14 PM
Argh! Feel so screw up after getting back all those papers. Whatever. I shall be prepared for next week where I suppose that we will get back our report book. Good luck Yanhua.
Did nothing much in school these few days. Oh and I saw my nursery cum primary school friend just now. I was in a hurry home because I didn’t do my music theory homework and I had a lesson at 4.30. Then, I herd someone calling ‘yanhua’ ‘yanhua’ I was abit gong and look around finally I realize who he is. OMG. I can’t believe that he actually had two ear holes (on one side only lah) with bright shiny ear rings. *stunt. Anyway this makes me feel a little guilty because I seldom say hi to my ‘old’ friends even if we were very close the last time. Somehow I feel that time had make then bond between us grew further. I try to forgive and forget but I seem to be a person who hold and bear grudge. Hmm. Perhaps that’s me. I could still remember those little things that people did to me. Although it didn’t affect me much but I just can’t get off my head.
Anyway back to my previous point, this world is just to perfect for me. I can’t live up to expectations.
Imperfection. Haiz.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, October 08, 2007
3:18 PM
HELLO!!! :)
I’m now at the library. Life after examinations doesn’t seem as interesting as it should be. I went to vivo with mummy just now to look for phones but papa wasn’t there to sign the thingy so in the end cannot buy, shall go again when papa returns from his oversea business trip. I did be a good good girl and wait.
Did nothing much these day except for some flash thingy. Getting back result this week. I’m praying very hard that I don’t screw up any of them. Oh please…
Haiz. Life is boring.
等待真的是一种煎熬， 痛苦
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
8:33 PM
Today marks the end of the examinations. Argh. I think I screw them all up once again. I think the language arts paper 2, reader's response questions and vocabulary questions are super tough. I totally wrote some crappy answers.
During the examination week, I really really yearn for today the end of exam to arrive soon. However, when it arrive, I no longer treasure it anymore. I thought there would be a lot of FUN FUN things wanting for me after exam but there seems to be nothing for me. HAIZ.
I live every moment of my life praying hard that I don’t flunk any of them…
On a lighter note, today, mumnmy ground me at home to tidy up my room after creating all the mess. Now my room is sort of neater but I stuff everything under my bed. ;) anyway tomorrow I can go out le. YEAH!!!
Wishing me all the best.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, September 08, 2007
9:06 PM
Wow! Time Files. Holiday is about to end. I think it is a boring holiday where I spent most of my time at home, slacking and daydreaming. I hope the beginning of school will be nice and pleasant. After all it has been some time since I last see my friends. (I’m so eager to see Dong Ying’s short hair. I think it will suit her quite well) Getting really bored at times, I just did some random quizzes.
Your Learning Style: Innovative and Independent
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You are determined and driven. Confident in your abilities, no field is too difficult for you.
You Should Study:
Astronomy
Biology
Chemistry
Design
Engineering
Philosophy
Physics
Political Science
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What Planet Are You From?
You Are From Saturn
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You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams.
You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones).
You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible.
Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun!
Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.
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Are You A Perfectionist?
You Are 78% Perfectionist
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You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others.
While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high! |
What Kind Of Sexy Girl Are You?
You Are Girly Sexy
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You're a youthful spirit, and your energy is infectious.
Men love your innocence and lack of emotional baggage.
You make every kiss seem like the first and every moment magical.
How could any guy in his right mind resist that?
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willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, September 01, 2007
9:07 PM
Haha today is the real teacher’s day. Yesterday we had teacher’s day celebration. BAND totally Rawks lo. The "Saturday night" was super nice and I got very high after that. I don’t know why I started to get bouncy and began to giggle.
WHOO!! RVBand go go go~~!!!
Dance also quite nice. I think they really bring out the mood. Then mr wong sang. He looked so funny. Following next is the teacher’s dance, “Ms goat” was super… (don’t know how to describe her but you will know what I mean if you saw the performance)
All in all it was FUN FUN FUN!!!! I didn’t go back to primary school despite many persuasions from other. Lol yanhua is evil.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, August 23, 2007
8:57 PM
Today got Physic and Math test. DOUBLE ATTACK!! The test was tough.
After the physic test I feel bad but still can control. Then it was math test. OHH!! I got the 1st question wrong. 2 x 2 = 2. Good job yanhua. There go 3 marks. Bye bye. I still got many other mistakes. I think I do badly for it. I cried quite a while after the math test. I cry and stop and cry and stop even when I was in the bus. Just when I was about to stop, dong ying asked if the gradient for the last physic question will increase or decrease. Then I heard cong wan say it will decrease then I started crying again like really cry until quite bad. Then xuan juin told me that the gradient will increase and everyone started convincing me that the gradient will increase. For once, I didn’t know who to believe. Maybe they just say it to make me stop crying. I begin to doubt me answer and now I don’t know what’s my answer.
ARGH, and I clearly knew that somebody wants to win me badly and will be giggling when reading this post, go ahead, do whatever you want. Kiasu people are like that. Let me tell you that it does not prove your ability by wining me cause I’m a failure so what’s the point? Haiz. I’m a failure. Don’t put large expectations on me.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, August 18, 2007
8:27 PM
Pissed. There’s no need to bother reading this.
I just don’t understand why people find it so hard to admit their mistakes. I’m actually quite nice towards you considering the fact that I hate you so much. I’m trying very hard to wear that thick mask that grins and lies. Forcing myself to smile all the time when I talk to you. Obviously you are better than me; I clearly knew that, you don’t have to prove to me any further. While I was pleading you for help, you conveniently ignored me just because you don’t know or perhaps you just don’t want to let me know and want me to get some scolding and humiliations. Leaving me alone, struggling to survive and hang on, and trying to catch up. If you can’t get along well with me than move far far away from me, don’t forbid other who wants to help me and who will be true to me. I did admit if I don’t know the answer to the question you post; I never ignore you like what you did to me. Although it may be humiliating, but still, I still managed to face up to reality. (I hate you. You hate me….) I’m kind enough not to AP you. Appreciate it. I never knew you were like that until I learn to know you better.
This world is too unfair and things just can’t be the way you want it to be. I’m pissing people off without me myself even realising it. I don’t understand why. May be that’s just too much for me to understand. How I wish I can be free from all troubles and disasters and be in a world I wanna be. A world where I can fully enjoy myself a place where fairies and angels exist, casting wonderful and magical spells. A planet which could make the stories in fairy tales comes true…
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
8:17 PM
Ohh… I feel super guilty today. There were a CID- forensic science trip to science centre and a bio-remedial at the same time. It was only yesterday after school did I hear that there was a Bio-remedial. At first I was in a dilemma I did not know which to go, but later Mr___ told us that we will not ever get back our Bio-paper if we don’t go for his remedial. Naturally, I went for his remedial forgetting all about the science centre trip. I totally forgot to tell mr boey that I was not going. He was so nice and waited for us - me, Ts& Jy. He even went around the whole school to hunt for us and when he saw us in the class room attending the remedial lesson, I was expecting a good scolding from him. However, all he said was faster, faster and next time must inform him. The whole cid1 and cid2 (forensic science) waited for us till 3pm when the bus should actually leave at 2.30pm. A cold desire came over me; I realized that it was all my fault. I feel so so guilty and embarrass. I really wouldn’t mind even if he were to yell at us, because I feel that we were really in the wrong….. haiz….
Bio-paper, I left a 6 marks question almost blank and I misread a 5 marks question. And some other mistake here and there. Well, I expected it right after the test that I will do badly. Also I forever just can’t do well for Chinese, term 3; I failed 3 out of 5 of the Chinese tests. It’s true. I mean fail badly like 4/20 for summary writing. I don’t know why people are having such high expectations on me. After all I’m just a total failure who sucks at everything, a hollow person with an empty brain.
Today Mdm___ was in a really bad mood. She was super scary when she screamed at sb for not answering a question correctly (or sth like that). I was quite afraid when she screamed cause she looked very fierce. She asked me to remind her when it is 1.25pm I was so nervous to alert her; I hesitate quite a while before I blurted out that its 1.25pm. It was like the 1st time she got angry over this kind of things. Normally she will just keep prompting us till we arrive at the correct answer. How nice… I only remember that she shouted at our class once (excluding than today) because sb was eating in class but that was still ok as I expected it.
On a lighter note, the science centre trip was fairly interesting. We learnt about yogurt making and forensic thingy. I was very amazed when the lecturer told us that yogurt is good for our skin if we were to mix it with some kind of power and apply it to our skin. The forensic part was when we have to investigate a murder case.
Shall end here bye
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
8:53 PM
A long long time has past since I last posted. I’m still well and alive though.
Today during cid, we watched CSI it was super scary. I nearly screamed. There was one gross part where the women put the victim’s thumb into a glass of ice and there was fresh blood on it. Although I must admit that the show really engaged me and keep me in suspend.
Haiz. Down with flu. Ah Choo!!
Sec 1s join main band today. I feel so zi4 bei1 lah. Is like I can’t even play well myself. Lol. Furthermore, I have taken the dumb role of a photocopy rap. I’m like so irresponsible yet I’m the one in charge of photo copying scores. I’m quite sure that one day I will get scolded for this and that. Boo hoo.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
8:09 PM
EH? Why isn't anyone tagging my blog?? PLEASESESE leave a tag! :)
Yar, perhaps you didn’t told me I was hallucinating then. Please lar own up, humiliation don’t work this way.
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
I feel super gong this few days. I don’t know what I’m doing. There’s this super tough algebra thingy that I don’t really know how to do. Tomorrow there’s band so, I need to memories the scores, which I’m going to start later. Stay back after school to do flash, the computer lab was very crowded lucky I got a computer and finished everything in about half an hour. We are doing Macbeth in school, at first I thought I will be boring but after a few lesson I find that it’s ok actually. Not exactly interesting however I do learn something at least. I also realized that mdm chia has a nice witch voice. As in it was interesting when she asked us to close our eyes and she narrated the whole scene in an extremely expressive tone. I could really imagine the witches walking out with there evil plans. Gtg bye.
[Whatever you say, just stop being so nagging at us, jumping to conclusion so fast. I dread sitting beside you and seeing you, stop! Yeah, you are right I can’t play well, I agree.]
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
8:23 PM
Today there’s this heritage day thingy. I went around visiting the booth, quite fun and nice. And the fear factor thingy was really gross and scary. Totally freak me out!
Tomorrow my group is doing the shui1 hu3 zhuan4 presentation. Some people just don’t care a heck about this. Think XLS is going to roar at us and ask us to re-do, I’m mentally prepared. And there is also a wo1 si1 wo1 zai4 test; the stories in the book are super boring, as if it is for primary school kids. The stories are like so short [even shorter than a composition] with moral at the end of each stories.
A short break due to explorer’s and connector’s week and memorizing of scores started again. Not too long but I just can’t get it into my head. 3 scores in 3 days, whoosh congrats me if I’m able to remember everything, it would be a miracle.
[High notes can’t play low notes can’t play, what can you play? (middle notes I supposed) Totally sucks at trumpet just can’t play it well, perhaps they are right.]
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Saturday, July 14, 2007
8:44 PM
It’s all over- Speech Day. Phew! I don’t know how to describe my feelings now. Confused.
I spent so much time memorizing the scores and just like that, it’s over. Thinking back, I totally wasted so much time on memorizing the scores lah, then now also no use already since it’s all over. Feel so cheated lor. Some more I played some wrong notes and only realized that when I had already finish playing. Sad.
Worst of all, when you memorized no one would even believe it lah. Somebody totally accused me & DY of not memorizing and she still says especially Yanhua. “YH, Dy I’m very sure that you all confirm didn’t memorize right esp. yanhua...” She will just jump to conclusion so what’s the point of explaining to her? I merely kept quiet. Memorizing makes no different after all you will still get accused in the end? Even if you memorize no one will even know (exp some of your closer friends) and even if you played the correct note no one will ever hear it but if you played some foreign notes which is out of the scores everyone will know. I was so put off by her words lah and tears just flow out -but not that bad; I managed to stop after a while. Never mind I hope no one notice it. But I was very moody after that.
Oh yes, YL really don’t know how to smuggle things (unlike DY) she was caught while trying to bring out some choc bars to eat. Haha: D So Suay! DY is so pro at bringing out things and no one even sees it. But she didn’t help me and YL. Hmm.
Anyway, I’m amazed that pupils in RV are so good at memorizing things- they can like memorize 3 different scores in like 3 days. Sometimes I really find my brain is just too tiny to remember so many things, maybe I should delete some of the information which is useless and forget about it. Then, there would be more capacity to contain new things. :):):)
Jia You !!
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
7:44 PM
This few days I feel so gong! My mind feels so blur and confused. It seems to contain lots of information and I feel like it’s going to burst soon. I need to memorize so many things like the Shui Hu Zhuan, math formula for the linear graph test and worst of all the 5 pages of music scores!!!! Argh! Sad to say, I remember none of them!
Moreover, things just can’t turn out the way I want it to be. Although I expected it, but I’m still shock and dismay. I don’t know what to say anyway what has happened can’t be undone so I guess the only choice I left is to bare with it, live with it. I realized things are getting from bad to worst. At first I find the activities quite fun enjoyable but later it turns out to be like hell with someone keep on picking on me and I just can’t stand it.
If your only reasons is to make me feel bad and uneasy and to make me hate you more, congratulations you did it. You obviously did it. Happy?! I wonder when you are going to stop putting me in this torturous state I’m in now. Yar, I’m a failure, I know, but you definitely don’t have to do this to me. Please stop for the sake of everyone leaving in peace and harmony. It’s like most of us can’t stand it, think about it. I don’t want to meet you but do I have a choice?
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, July 09, 2007
8:14 PM
Today, lessons are as usual and we change sitting arrangement and I’m right at the back of the class, with a pile of newspaper behind me. Sitting with Si Hui isn’t that bad after all. She’s quite interesting and fun. Plus her maths is super pro.
Tomorrow there’s band and speech day rehearsal. Lessons are to end at 1pm and class test will be postponed I suppose. Well, I definitely prefer class time more where I get to learn new things. Although it’s a bit hot at my sit, but class activities are not exactly boring except for some.
However, atbandIgetnaggedbyseniorall “formyowngood”. Somebodywilllike pin-pointonmyplaying
andsaythatthisisn’trightandthat’swrongandthingslikethat. Seriouslythisistakingatollonme, butstill
mustpayrespectsoIsimplynoddedandagreewiththatsomebody, tryimproving. Iliketrumpetasan
instrumentbutnotband. Hmm. Weird! [ I hope no one try reading this, Imeannooffence.]
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, July 05, 2007
9:01 PM
Today I went to the Yakult factory and we are supposed to learn about biotechnology. It was quite fun but I didn’t really learn much. A person working there told us that he was also from RV and started telling us about his exciting childhood. He was totally weird and diverted the whole topic. He told us how was school like in the past and for most of the time he told us about his love story and about his favorite badminton etc, etc. He was rather funny too, but he really uses quite a bit of words that are uncalled for like "wlao" and he said it like so many times. The female teachers were like laughing and giggling with us when he said about he and his girlfriend last time. But Mr Chow was like quite pissed and sianed I think because this is suppose to be some learning journey. Talking about the process of making Yakult, he suddenly diverted to say about Singapore’s aging population and he started to encourage us to help to increase the birth rate. Anyway I realized that Yakult are competing with Vitagen they claimed that they are much better than Vitagen and said that Vitagen always changes the bacteria they use in their drinks. Also, Yakult Company sell quite a lot of products besides the milk drinks. They sell medicines, cosmetics, yogurts and even instant noodles. However, most of the products are only sold in Japan. And the person says one packet of Yakult instant noodles cost about $2 as the noodles are made from so kind of green algae. It was sad that I didn’t get to buy any Yakult there. Although, it was fun and funny but if I had a 2nd choice, I would prefer to go for my piano lesson as I didn’t learn much there.
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
9:08 PM
Hello, it has been a long time since I last blogged. Haha I’m now going to make my blog alive again:) School has started and I get back to the regular routine of my life. Lesson these days are rather similar. (Not exactly interesting neither is very boring.) For Chinese is some yi4 lun4 wen2, Maths is the linear graph and its application, Science is on continuity of life, and language arts is on analysing some kind of text. And today some visitors came to visit out class during language arts.
Nowadays there are many tests coming along the 2nd day of school was the shui3 hu3 zhuan4 test and I totally failed it. Badly. Yesterday was biology module test and I left a 6 marks question blank. 6 marks out of 35 is like 17% of the whole thing. WISH ME GOOD LUCK!!! 17% gone. Furthermore, after the test then I realised that the same question is found in one of my book, it was exactly the same except for some minor changes which did not even affect any part of the experiment. To make things even worst, all those things that I study didn’t even come out, wasted all my precious time. :(
Tomorrow there’s this trip to Yakult Company, sadly I have piano lesson but I choose to go to Yakult instead, going to miss my piano lesson unfortunately. 1 piano lesson is about $50, so goodbye my $50. I will try to rush to my lesson if the whole thing ends early like I wish. I think this month I’m going to miss my piano lesson twice, one for tomorrow one for the explorer’s and connecters’ week. Hmm.
Friday, we need to present the history role-play, and I’m the 1st group to present. I need to bring the props like 2 swords and a straw hat, also need to look through the script.
Oh yes. I need to thank those people who tagged at my blog despite me not posting. They are mostly my primary school friends (long time no see) and some other friends. Lol.
Idon’tmindyougivingmefeedbacks,
butoverdoingsomethingisnevergood.
Itonlymakesthingsworst.
Pleasestopdrivingatme,won’t you?PleaseIreallyappreciatedthatdaytheonlydaywithoutyournaggings.
TheonlydaywhereIcanplaywithjoy.
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, May 21, 2007
9:54 PM
Haiz… today the whole 2F was supposed to stay back for art detention. So unfair can? We finished most of the things except spraying the paint which is because xi meng didn’t come so we don’t have any spray paint. She kept on scolding and scolding us and made us stay back until 5pm to feed mosquitoes and spray some paint. I seriously feel that it makes no different when you spay white paint on the silver wires. Anyway, it is just to make her happy. Also during art lesson when Kennard was twisting the wires we three girls were watching. We ask him if he need assistances but he said he doesn’t and I also don’t know how to help him. Then the she come and say that we are like “gu niang” sitting there doing nothing.
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
To start off, in life, you will always have a choice, you can always choose to leave this blog by clicking on the red button.
Somebody really pissed me off. Keep acting like she is so popular then say this say that. (Gossip, gossip and gossip) Big mouth…I was like smiling at someone then she thought that I was gossiping about her and started accusing me of spreading rumours. So fake… and also she keep imitating other people’s idea then pick all the good point that can benefit herself. Then, act until so pathetic like everyone must give in to her and agree with her. Stingy, selfish and unreasonable. Finally, she can’t stand it anymore and breakdown. I'm sure she will tell all her family members and make a mountain out of a mole hill. I simply hate you for the evil things you have done to me and to others.
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
9:16 PM
Haiz... It seems that 5 out of 6 results are out. Disappointing I should say. I nearly flunk all of them so don’t bother to ask me my marks. I disproved by a lot. I am a great GREAT failure I should say. Failure. Sad. Today get back history and math. I totally disagree with the marks that she gave me for history!!! So Low!! I don’t know what’s wrong with my answer, they seem to be correct but well it is wrong according to her. I went to ask her for marks and in the end she seems to be arguing with me about my answer saying that my answers are the not complete and explanations are not clear etc. I don’t know how to describe her marking should I say that she is strict or she doesn’t even know how to mark. Anyway, this is expected I have prepared myself for the worse although I don’t want to face the harsh reality. Tomorrow get back geography, hope I get some reasonable marks but all my answers seem to be incomplete or not well-explain when I hear him say the model answer the last time. Wish me good luck.
Today is also the 1st day of band after a long exam break. Uhmm… Well, we did try to play a new song but we look as if we have lost count and blow until very lousy. It is totally RUBBISH and CRAPS according to my senior and we ended up getting a good scolding from her.
Today, it seems to be a bad day for me. Haiz… Only wish that tomorrow things will turn out better… I feel that bad and sad things shouldn’t always remain the same, they should change but they don’t. However, it seems that only good things are changing for the worst. That is the harsh reality of life….
Bye,
(Wish me good luck and all the best!)
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
8:14 PM
Hello:)
It has been a long time since I last posted. So sorry. Well, examination has come to an end. It’s like finally. I feel like my brain is going to burst. The questions are all so tricky and difficult. Hmmm… I don’t know. I don’t want to get back the results. What if I fail? Perhaps, I will fail and someone keep boosting to me about his result. (Yar, I know you get very high for some oral thingy and I know your target is to beat me. Let me tell you I am going to fail. Want to beat me? So be it. I don’t care)
Haiz… I feel that these few days, I have been neglecting the things around me. I have been neglecting my surrounding. And yes, perhaps I should stop grumbling and be more aware of what is happening around me…
Gtg bye… (Posted after 1 month)
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, April 09, 2007
8:05 PM
Don't try to interfere when you don't even know the facts. You don't have the rights to. Don’t be like a headless chicken supporting someone in the wrong. All you know are vulgarities... There are higher class word like malicious instead of just @#%&$ for your information. I WARN you: never do you dare to scold it right in front of my face. &Stop your childish calling of names.
Yar and somebody does not even have the guards to fight for herself. She is wallowing in pathetic self pity. She needs a lot of supporters to sympathize with her.
Let justice prevail!!!
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, April 06, 2007
9:52 PM
Doesn’t your conscious ring when u speak things like this? Can’t u see that we already help u a lot by doing most of the things? All u say was u had lots of commitments and is busy. Don’t u know that we also have lots and lots of commitment on top of this project. Appreciate what u have and stop grumbling like u are the only one who is so busy. Can’t u see that other people who are as busy as u also have to do this project? Don’t u think that we are helping u a lot already? Is it so difficult for u just to do one small part of the project without grumbling and getting pissed with the slightest thing? Oh yes, all I did was to ask u how is the project going on. Just that few sentences and u make such a big reaction. I merely say:
How as the trip?""Good?""nice or not?""You do on which places?""So do you know the name of all the places?"
That’s all I said can… [Nth more] and u make such a big fuss out of it. I mean what’s wrong with those questions? I’m not blaming u for anything u infer it yourself. If u feel that I’m treating unfairly on this project u can always direct it to the teacher. I dun mind. As u can see I don’t really care anymore.
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Thursday, April 05, 2007
9:11 PM
SERVER MOOD SWING!!!
I’m pissed!!!
Can’t u see that I’m trying my best to help?
Can’t u just understand what I mean?
I can see that u are wearing a mask which grins and lies
And yes u are!!!
U may think that it hides your cheeks and shades your eyes
But I still can see the Count Olaf trick that u hide
I duno what u are up to
What are u trying to hide
I duno the scheme u are plotting
And the salt that u add
This is the debt we pay to human guile
With torn and bleeding hear we smile…
Cruelty has a Human Heart
Terror, the Human Form Divine
And secrecy, the Human Dress
Let the world think otherwise in counting our tears and sighs
Let the evilness of US devine…
[The red button at the top right hand coner always welcome u...]
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Friday, March 30, 2007
9:43 PM
I have enough!!!
Enough!!!
These few days in a SUPER bad and mad mood
I think I’m going to flunk the tests
Why must it be so tricky?
I agreed that it is not that difficult but tricky!!!
What is the aim of the exam?
To fail me?!
Use those languages and words tricks to fool me!!!
After the math test was language arts
Glad that teacher didn’t come,
Cause I can’t concentrate after the math test.
Ts was discussing the answer.
The more I hear,
The more depressed I became…
I kept quiet for a while
Then tears flowed out of my eyes…
I get so many wrong!!!
Thanks for some people who comfort me But… Haiz…
I just can't get over it...
And to some people did some kind of evil things, (u know who U are!!!)
I am going to hate u for your actions and the usage of your cameras!!!
I say what I mean
And I mean what I say!!!
HOPE THAT GOOD LUCK WILL COME SOON
These few days the deadlines of projects are drawing near
Feel so stressed Up!!!
Everyone is like pushing the work around and nothing is done!!!
And end up one poor person has to bao1 the whole thing to prevent getting scolded!! [Esp for one particular project]
Something must be done!!!
(See ya Thursday and prepare a script only ___ will understand )
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, March 26, 2007
8:46 PM
What is your Freaking problems?
All you told me was I duno?
What does u expect me to do?
Do u ever care?
Time flies
And disappeared in an blink of an eye,
Before u knew it
I will be too late!!
TOO LATE
And there’s nothing I can do anymore…
Anyway many things seem to change…
Oh yes and I just realised that melody’s dumb cane effect seems to be quite serious this few days… it can’t be cured in an hour or so anymore… hope she gets well soon!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
IS there a need to fake me of your 2 marks??
willMydreamsCOMEtrue?
iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
Monday, March 19, 2007
4:49 PM
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iSPEAKuponTHEmagicStar
KHz... The previous post seems to cause many many misunderstanding. Many people thought that I was referring to them [2 to be exact] exp the mastermind part. Well, it’s just my thoughts though. There is no doubt that its not you when you didn’t do anything to me!!! Your conscious is clear anyway :) oh yes and for the geography project, I didn’t know that I was me all along. Jas and QW thought that I want to separate groups. I don’t think I said that but I think they concluded through what I said. Ha-ha… I duno perhaps…but now I think everything should be settle le ba... Friends are friends we do quarrel over things at times but we will bury the hatches soon after. Ya I hope so…
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